During the month of October, I am running a Kickstarter funding campaign to produce my fifth album, “Interior Gaze." Over the course of this month, I am going to share the stories and lyrics from each of the 10 tracks for the CD (in alphabetical order.) Towards the end of the campaign, will I re-cap the entire project, and explain how the "Theology of the Body" inspired each one.
Here is the background story of song #1: “Bad Timing.”
Music is the language of the soul. I am trying to speak that language from my heart like never before, and I hope you catch a glimpse of my inner life through these songs. I certainly want to share the joy and confidence I find through my faith in God. At the same time, I want to be real about the struggle that comes from wrestling with my own ego.
The biggest downfall of my personal character is pride, the failure to see myself as I truly am. I’m working and praying on it. The remedy? Honesty about both my strengths and weaknesses. Writing about my failures is not the easiest, but I find encouragement in these words, “I will gladly boast in my weakness...when I am weak, then I am strong.” -2 Corinthians 12:9
This song comes from years of feeling unrequited affection toward someone, then firmly moving on, and only then learning he felt the same towards me all along. One of my favorite quotes is from an author named Josh Harris. Speaking about relationships, he said, “The right thing at the wrong time is the wrong thing.” That seems to sum up this particular relationship.
Today, happily married to someone else, I am at peace about the way this went down. I could not have imagined a better outcome. However, the feelings of hurt and confusion and incredulousness are still fresh on my heart when I think back on the ordeal. So, this is me writing from that place of simple irony.
To read the lyrics, visit the updates section of my Kickstarter webpage by clicking here. Would you like to hear the song in a studio recording? Consider backing my project by making a pledge, and please join me in praying for success in this campaign.
More "Interior Gaze" story lines & lyrics coming soon.